Nothing but the beat.

Yeah, yeah.
I know I sort of got off the blogosphere for a little too long this time.
My apologies folks.
Believe me, I wasn't enjoying it either.
But I am back and certainly not with a bang. :P
So I was talking to this awesome friend of mine.
A really good photographer and a better writer.
Those who don't read her blog can visit it here.
http://absolutenikism.tk/
Once you read it, you'll thank me.
So I was talking to her and she told me, or rather instructed me to write on a topic she was supposed to write on.
The topic is pretty big but nice.

"You know I’ve got this theory, there are two kinds of people in the world. There are lyric people and music people. You know, the lyrics people tend to be analytical. You know, all about the meaning of the song. They’re the ones you see with the CD insert out like 5 minutes after buying it, pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. Um, then there’s the music people, like Brooke. Who could care less for the lyrics as long as its just got like a good beat and you could dance to it. I don’t know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I’m not, let me just say this. Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you, I believe that. And for me its usually song lyrics."

So it's pretty nice, isn't it?

Life is actually like a song.
You can either just listen to beats and enjoy the song or you can just listen to the lyrics, pouring over the meaning of it.
The choice is yours and you'll regret and enjoy both.
Lyrics people are considered much more, well, soft-hearted.
People aren't always like that.
I remember myself being a music person.
But then life happened.
I never expected myself to be a lyrics person, but by the end of it, I myself didn't knew how it happened.
I don't exactly know why I gave that away.
You know people don't always go ny the lyrics.
I didn't.
But when you actually have had pain, gone through some pretty bad stuff, you actually start hearing the lyrics.

I've noticed that only people who have gone through pain and actually know what being a broken-hearted feels like go by the lyrics.
It's because they, out of all, understand that life is not just about happiness and enjoyment.
At times, life is about pain.
And crying.
They know a song is not just about the music.
There's more to a song.
Sometimes, there is misery.
Sometimes, there is love.
And sometimes, there is life.

As much as I would love to be the music person, I was a few years earlier, I hate to admit that I actually am a lyrics person.
But at times, I wish if I could just forget the lyrics and just dance to the beat.
I wish I could think about Nothing but the beat.
I wish I'd care less about how much the lyrics suit my life.
I wish I was a music person.
Because that is how life's supposed to be.
Just enjoying the beat.
But as I said, the choice is yours.
And even though I am a lyrics person but at times, just for a while, I forget the so called problems I have and just dance along the beat caring less about what the lyrics mean.

Yes, I am a philosophical person and I think a little too much but sometimes, I actually like to be the crazy, wild, young, free and insane girl that I used to be.
Sometimes, I forget everything and simply be the carefree, un-complicated and crazy retard I was and I think, I still am. :)

You may have heard a song but you know it only when you know what it means.
Songs carry messages.
Messages of the heart.
That we fail to express.
Messages, we could never deliver.

Life is like a song.
So dance on it while it's still on.
It many end any second.
So while we're here.......

The Bitch Called Life.

Life is not at all fair.
It's a bitch we all face everyday.
This post is not about me.
It's to tell you all about a beloved friend.
A friend who is indeed falling short of luck.
A friend who could use all our wishes and respect.
A friend who has suffered a little too much for his age.
A friend who deserves so much more.
A friend with whom life's not playing  fair.
Life's a fucking bitch.
No matter how many time it'll bite you, it'll always go on.
Till now , I thought that life's not playing fair with me.
But after what happened to my friend, I doubt that.
God and believe is a joke to me now.
A joke I wouldn't like to laugh at.
I swear, I won't ever go to a temple again .
Even if I do, there's nothing in the world which can ever make me believe again.
I won't ever pray again.
God's too busy to listen.
The friend I have,
He just lost his mother who was suffering from tumor.
I had been praying for his mother over a month but nothing worked.
I can't possibly imagine what he's going through right now.
I feel so bad for him.
But if only it could help.
I'd do anything to bring his mother back.
I wish I could help him.
He's the most amazing guy I've ever met.
He's my carbon copy.
It's just that he's suffered more than I ever did.
He's just a 14 year old guy and he lost the woman he loved the most.
I guess he deserves some respect and our salutes.
Life's not at all fair to him and he deserves so much more. 
I wish the gods had listened.

After this, I actually doubt if there are any. You know the worst part?
He's just a 14 year old and actually has no hope.
That is not a good thing.
Hope and believe are the only things which can make your dreams true.
But, this guy has lost belief.
I hate god for it.
He's been seeing his mom just lying on a bed since 1 year.
I cruel year.
Her mom getting back to normal was the only thing that could get his hope back to him.
But, god took away the last chance.
He has to get his hope back.
He has to believe in things.
Otherwise he'll be depressed.
I don't know how, I will bring his hopes back
I will get him to believe.
Even though it's hard.
I will.
I can't see him depressed.
Or worse,
Hopeless.

I feel a little helpless now to be honest.
I can't talk to him.
I can't make sure if he's okay.
Hell, I know he's not okay.
I can't imagine what he's going through.
How he must be feeling.
How he must be facing the fact that he won't ever see his mom ever again.
I can't know anything.
All I can do is write about my helplessness on a stupid website.
I wish he comes back to life soon.
Cause I miss him already.

And God,
What you did was not good. You took away the one last hope left to bring a good guy to believe again. So I hope your happy.
You just proved once again that bad things always happen to the good people.
Don't ever expect me in your temples again.
Don't expect me to beg or pray to you for anything.
Either way, you won't listen.

I've learned there's only one god- Death and there's only one thing we say to him - Not today.

Rest In Peace Aunty.

Be what you want to be. Not what they wish to see.

So, the last week has been really hard on me.
And I've had a lot of time to introspect.
Well, I have a lot to talk about now.

You all know how much I hate when people judge me.
I've  talked about all that in the judging personalities post.
Well, people judge all the time.
But you shouldn't let that change a bit of you if it's not for the good.
You are different and you have to accept that.
You should try to become a better person whenever you can.
But, that doesn't means losing your identity.
Never lose yourself.
This world is a cruel place to live in.
But you should never let anyone affect your life.
People will get close to you and there's no way to stop it.
At least there's no way that I know of.
If you're a teenager, pay attention.
They'll think what the want to think.
They'll hear what they want to hear.
They'll see what they wish to see.
So no matter what you do, they'll dislike you if they want to and like you if they wish to.
That's the way this world works.
So you don't think too much.
You just do what you want to do and follow you're heart.
Only it can tell you what you want.
Life's too short and people are many.
You can never keep all of them happy 
So, why not just keep yourself happy?

All your life, you'll try to impress them and all they'll ever do is take you for granted and expect more than what there is to you.
Even if you make them happy, you won't be till you actually keep yourself satisfied.

Just remember, no one will ever promise you forever expect yourself.
There's only one person who will be there for you always , and that is you.

So learn to keep yourself happy.
Because, if you love life, life will love you back.

Escape To Paradise

Paradise.

That is where I want to go. 

That is where I want to be.

That is where I belong.

Under the moonlight,

Sitting on a white horse,

Behind my prince charming,

In the yellow woods filled with light.

That's paradise.

Where everything is just as I want it to be - good.

Where there is no stress.

Where I won't be tensed about my coming up result. 

Where my parents don't worry about me being out of the house after 8.

Where I don't have to worry if someone sees me with my prince.

Where there is no peer pressure.

Where there is no shitty problems I have to deal with.

That's where I want to go. 

In my dream land.

♥PARADISE♥

Where things are different.

I want a new life.

I want to start over.

I want to be in a place where there is peace. 

Where there are no limitations.

No regrets, Just love.

I want to go somewhere no one else can see.

There will be just us and him and me. 

I want to go. 

To a place where there is no one. 

No one to tell me what to do.

No one to tell me what's right and what's wrong.

In fact, where there is no right and wrong. 

I just don't want to live my shitty life anymore.

I know there's something more to me and I just have to find it.

But in this world we live, I guess it's just impossible to be who you are.

"One of the greatest mental freedom is truly not caring what anyone thinks of you"

-Some guy. 

Bless this guy. 

What he wrote is so true. 

This is the bitter-sour truth of our own world.

We all care about what others think.

That's the reason the world is in chaos.

We all think.

Biggest blunder we all make.

We've got just one life to live.

One heart to give.

One chance to love.

Only one.

So instead of thinking and wasting time , go and fucking do what you want.

I just want to go and escape from this world of limitations.
Where there is magic.

I want to go where there is no regrets, just love.

Where there is nothing but magic.

Where there is love.

Where I can live my life, the way I want to live it.

Where I can fly.

Where Happy Endings Still Exist.

You might think I want to run away. 

But no , I am not a coward.

I just want to escape.

Because that is what takes to survive.

Oh , I wish I could fly.

Fly to paradise.

♥MY PARADISE♥

Just You And Me. Forever Please?

Love and Regrets.

Hey there bloggers. :D

Today I entered the blogosphere to just tell you all how lonely I have been lately and the reason behind it.

So as I said in the last post, things have gotten really weird.
I mean , life is turning complicated.

That's why I blog.
This is the only place where I talk.
Moreover , It's the only place where I talk what I feel.

Things are turning worse by the minute and I really can't express what I feel to anyone now.
I mean, no one actually understands me anymore.
I had someone who did, but I pushed him away.

I may be strong and sometimes, it feels good to know that you are living on your own all fine.
But, at times you actually want someone to cry your heart out to.

I need someone.

Someone who actually understands me and will be there for me.
Someone who won't judge.
Someone who will always love me even at my worst.

I miss having that someone.

Dear love,
Pushing you away was the worst mistake I ever made. I have been regretting losing you ever since you said goodbye. You think I am just ignoring you but actually, I don't know how to face you. After all that I've done, I don't think I deserve even 1% of you. You deserve so much better. I am sorry . I wouldn't even try to take you back.  Just because I think I have hurt you enough for a lifetime. Believe me, you will get someone you deserve but that won't be me. I want to tell you how much I miss you. How much I loved you and how much I would love to have you back but I just don't think I am worth anyone.
Sincerely,
The one who's tangled up on you.

I am so guilty.
I lost the one person who meant so much to me.
I lost my prince charming.

You know what's the worst part?
This time I can't blame anyone. Not even destiny for what happened.
I know all of it was my fault.

This time , prince charming came on his white horse to sweep me off my feet.
He did make me feel like I was his snow white.
He did wake me up from the dead and brought me back to life.
But, I guess I just preferred to hunt in the lonely woods alone instead of having my happily ever after.

So congratulations to me.
I just threw away my happy ending because I wanted to start over but truly, life doesn't gives you a second chance. Neither will love.
Ever.
I hope you're happy past Lakshita. :'/

Talking To The Universe.

Hey there universe!
How ya doin?
I am not at all fine and I hope the same for you bro!

Things have been way too complicated lately.
Life has gotten a bit weird, and that's an understatement.
I swear.
I am not at all exaggerating bro.
And I, being the coward that I have always been, am gonna put the blame of all of it,on you.
Why aren't you being good
Pto me?
I mean, have you vowed to teach me all the painful so called "lessons of life" as soon as possible?
All of them all together ?

I mean come on bro.
Leave some for future me.
Past me has survived them {unfortunately} and present me just cannot handle them anymore.
I know it's a mean and selfish world.
Stop proving it to me again and again.
They aren't gonna change me anyway.
I will always be the same, stupid, spoilt,naughty girl.
I will always be me.
Situations are not going to change me, neither will these jack-asses you are  sending to me.
I will always be the same me.
I am always going to make the same mistakes.
I am always going to trust the wrong people.
I will always hurt myself over and over again due to stupid people.
I am always gonna cry for the wrong people.
You can't change the way I am, do stop believeing you will.
It just makes things harder for me.

Since I cannot warn you, take this as a pleasent request.

Please stop trying to make me realise things I wont believe.
Please stop trying to make me realise Reality.

I like myself in my fairy land a little more.

Please universe, please! Stop doing good things.
Your intention doesn't counts, the effect does.

It's a humble request out of the 6 billion  folks you deal with.
Listen please?
Pretty please?

This letter is just to tell you that things are not at all well and you just have to start changing things.

I live in a world of fantasy, so please keep your reality away for me.

I know it's totally stupid to write a letter to a hypothetical person like you.
But, it's the much needed thing to do right now.
But, I am getting ahead of myself.

So that's it for now.
Please help. Your services are really needed.
Thanks for listening.
Sincerely,
The one who is seriously disturbed by your actions.

I wrote this letter to the universe approximately 3 days ago when I was getting super bored and annoyed.
And since, I do not know where to send this letter, I am gonna post it to the one place I've always loved.
The one place where I talk.
The one place where I am who I am.
My blog.
<3 

Post script- Stop thinking I am some sort of lunatic. I am just highly disturbed from the past couple of days.
I haven't slept in 3 nights bro.
Beat that.
It's a huge thing for a sleep addict like me.
And People have fucking vowed to annoy me to the farest extent possible.
So well such a crazy blog is the much needed thing to do right now.
It's sort of in-your-face letter to myself just to tell me how much I want to talk to someone.
So, don't judge me.
*Hides behind the curtain*

I am tired as shit and sleepy as fuck.
So well It's only natural if I go and sleep but I wanted to talk before.

Okay, I am getting weird.
Before I get more weird and start sending photos , I must take your leave.
My pillow and my bed is waiting for me.

Tadaaaaa folks!
- Lakshu<3