I am a sad person.
I am never happy, god knows how I don't have the closest idea to what content means or implies, and I keep cribbing all the time.
That's how my attitude has been most of my life. I've always looked at the glass half empty and I've always wondered about the piece of the puzzle that was missing. But of late, things have changed.
It's not that I'm happy all of a sudden, but I know that in some way, my days are brighter.
The transition between school to college has taken away a major part of my life, and honestly, I've lost a lot of people in the past few months. But I don't recall being depressed or anxious or being drenched in melancholy. Things that would've ruined me or broken me 2 years ago just don't make that much of a difference anymore and I've grown immune to a lot that used to be intoxicating.
So I guess, what I'm saying is, I've grown one step closer to being a grown up or maybe a cold heart-ed, or maybe some of both, or maybe definitely neither but who the hell has time to decide?
Life's a little TOO short to ponder upon what happens, let alone WHY it happens.
Point is, being a grown up is a sad thing but from a certain angle, the best thing that can happen to you is that you stop giving a fuck.
Kids pass me by in uniformity when the sun is right above my head,
Do I wish I was among them or am I happy instead?
People stare and pass their judgements when I walk by,
Maybe that's the reason school had uniform or maybe I'm just high.
Things are simple if you look at the problem as if you know the answer,
They say, love kills you from within and I just need to ask, then what the fuck is cancer?
We know a lot more than we think we do, if we concentrate long enough,
Life's not fair and we're surrounded by lies but sometimes, it's not if you're smart enough to call the bluff.
People leave and it's okay. You're not going to be dead inside if someone leaves,
Sometimes, memories are gold, and all we become are thieves.
Look to the right, the truth shall triumph and the bad things will go away,
Darkness is inevitable, kid and things won't always be as bright as Broadway.
It's okay to feel out of place and sense that you're not where you belong,
If you feel you're not fitting in, you're probably the only one who's not wrong.
That probably sums up how I feel and that's it for the night. :)
I am never happy, god knows how I don't have the closest idea to what content means or implies, and I keep cribbing all the time.
That's how my attitude has been most of my life. I've always looked at the glass half empty and I've always wondered about the piece of the puzzle that was missing. But of late, things have changed.
It's not that I'm happy all of a sudden, but I know that in some way, my days are brighter.
The transition between school to college has taken away a major part of my life, and honestly, I've lost a lot of people in the past few months. But I don't recall being depressed or anxious or being drenched in melancholy. Things that would've ruined me or broken me 2 years ago just don't make that much of a difference anymore and I've grown immune to a lot that used to be intoxicating.
So I guess, what I'm saying is, I've grown one step closer to being a grown up or maybe a cold heart-ed, or maybe some of both, or maybe definitely neither but who the hell has time to decide?
Life's a little TOO short to ponder upon what happens, let alone WHY it happens.
Point is, being a grown up is a sad thing but from a certain angle, the best thing that can happen to you is that you stop giving a fuck.
Kids pass me by in uniformity when the sun is right above my head,
Do I wish I was among them or am I happy instead?
People stare and pass their judgements when I walk by,
Maybe that's the reason school had uniform or maybe I'm just high.
Things are simple if you look at the problem as if you know the answer,
They say, love kills you from within and I just need to ask, then what the fuck is cancer?
We know a lot more than we think we do, if we concentrate long enough,
Life's not fair and we're surrounded by lies but sometimes, it's not if you're smart enough to call the bluff.
People leave and it's okay. You're not going to be dead inside if someone leaves,
Sometimes, memories are gold, and all we become are thieves.
Look to the right, the truth shall triumph and the bad things will go away,
Darkness is inevitable, kid and things won't always be as bright as Broadway.
It's okay to feel out of place and sense that you're not where you belong,
If you feel you're not fitting in, you're probably the only one who's not wrong.
That probably sums up how I feel and that's it for the night. :)
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