Rudra Pratap Singh Sharma <3

And you know I have been missing on a lot of things lately.
Dancing, eating, praying, singing.
Actually to be honest, I have been missing on a lot of people lately, nandini, pratibha and a guy.
A guy who's not just ANY guy.
A guy who's smart.
With the cutest smile with those vampire teeth.
A guy who's always been one of the most amazing friends I have ever had.
A guy who's a little short in height but wayyy to biggg at heart.
A guy who has not only been my best friend but also my ally, my bro for life, my companion and my janani :P
The one with the longest name.
Rudra Pratap Singh Sharma! <3
The one who had a post dedicated to him last year exactly this time.
You know why?
Because it's his fucking birthday bitches.
First things, first serve.
Rudra, I know we haven't been in touch lately and I know you think that I have forgotten everything about you but the truth is, it's not like that. I remember you pretty well. Not only you. I remember all the memories we made.
All the times when I taught you almost every subject at the tuition.
All the times we hung out at ice cafe.
All the times we got those pictures clicked.

Mansi's birthday. L.P.S winter carnival.
And honestly,  every thing has been fun.
Even the 3rd of november, when we made a HUGE mistake.
You know, you were the coolest best friend I had and the best thing about you was the way you loved.
And honestly, seeing you loose that over the past few months is the main reason why I drifted away.
You know I still think about  the times when you and Rana told me everything you have been doing since the past few months.
And honestly, I still don't want to believe any of it.
I miss seeing that Rudra around.
The one with the lame jokes and the awesome shayri.

I know you think that I don't remember you and shit. But I do.
A little to well.
Rest, you know how it goes.
I love you. Stay there forever. Blaa. Blaa.
I didn't put a caption because I couldn't write all of this on facebook.
I am posting it here instead.
I hope that you read this soon.
Because this is what I want you to know.
I love you Rudra Pratap Singh Sharma.
The one with the adorable smile and the charming dimples :*
Happy birthday love :D

:')

Again, I am sorry for the absence.
Sorry fellas, but I have lost that thing in me. The craze to write. It's lost.
But I still wanna talk about a lot of things.
For example, I want to tell you people how much I miss this place.
I want to tell some people how much I love them.
I want to tell my parents that I don't want to leave my house.
I want to tell Dad that I hate how he doesn't trust me anymore.
I want to tell Arpan how much I love him.
I wanr to tell Nandini and Pratibha how much I need the Cupcakes/Bombs to get back together.
I want to tell Mansi, Luvleen and Lakshika that they're the only 3 reasons I have for going to school.
I want to tell Mom that I love her even if I shout at her and drive away from her.
I want to tell Ayush that I miss talking to him everyday.
I want to tell Manish Sir that I hate how he drove away.
I want to tell Utkarsh how much I miss him everyday and how much I hate the fact that he's so far away.

There are so many things I want to tell so many people. But no matter how hard I try, I can't.
I wish I could. But I can't.

That's the thing about life, you see. No matter how much you want something, the best is to let go of it.
Because no matter how hard you try grabbing it by the hand, it only pushes you away and while you're running after it.. Suddenly, you discover, it's not even worth it. :)

January to February. Again. :)
Heart beats fast.
Slow down, the world isn't watching now.
Colors and promises.
It's safe to say, we are alone now.

Moments and memories.
I can't hear no sound. Only a whisper.
That whisper turns to shouting. Shouting turns to tears.
The tear turns into laughter.
And it breaks away all fears.

There's a question. There's a doubt.
How can she love when she's afraid to fall?
There's another following on.
Would he even catch her if he does?

If there's an answer, she'd like to know.
She doesn't like it like the winter snow.
Another touch, a little more tears.
These smiles are going to last for years.

They'd see them smile. They'd see them laugh.
Just like it used to be in january.
The giggles and the carefree love.
And maybe it would lead to february :')