Is it?

When I was little, I always feared loosing my favorite toy. I always thought of loosing it one day and I dreaded that moment. Then I grew up a little, and I started to fear loosing people. Then when I turned into a teenager, I started to fear loosing myself. 

While I sat there being afraid of the worst case scenarios, I forgot to enjoy the best case scenarios. 

I forgot to appreciate the time I had with my favorite toy, my favorite person and my favorite version of myself. 

It's no way to live life. Being scared? 

Screw that. 

They say, "All the good things come to an end.". 

We don't know when and it's something we cannot help.

But what you can do or change is how fast or how slow will it end. 

So imagine this, will you be a brave mother and give your baby essence of nightshade to give him an easy death? Or will you sit there and watch him scream to death just to get a few more moments with him. 

It's all going to be over one day. Either you're going to die soon and leave things undone or you'll live to sit on the porch with a glass of wine alone. 

Either you're going to stand up and do something about the things you don't like or you'll be the stubborn idiot you are and not give a rat's ass about things. 

Either you watch someone you love die or you die before they do and give them the pain you saved yourself. 

Every relationship and friendship is going to end and it's going to hurt. 

But the question my friend, is that Is it worth fighting for? 

Is it? 

A midnight's request.

I don't like you not being there. I don't like it when I need you and you're nit there. I don't like it when I call you and you don't pick up. I don't like that you're so far away. I don't like that I can't have you. I don't like the fact that touching you feels wrong. I don't like the fact that loving you feels wrong.

I don't like a lot of things.

I don't like how you know so much about me.

I don't like how can tell something's wrong with me even before I know it.

I don't like how you can tell so many things from my voice. I don't like that you love me so much. I don't like how I think I can never do anything that will make me deserve you. I don't like that you're so amazing. I don't like how you fit into the prince charming perfectly.

You say, it's going to be alright.

I know that's true. But I want to skip to that part. I want alright. Now.

Every day when you're not here, it makes me feel bad.

Every day when I can't hug you, it makes me feel like I missed something.

Like, I missed a daily chore.

I love you. And I hate that I can't show you how much.

I don't like a lot of things.

And out of all the things I don't like, my favorite dislike happens to be you.

Of days..

Of days when things didn't seem to work out,

To the realization that pretence only makes you want to shout.

Of days when pouts are preferred over smiles,

To the realization that there's only one person who will make you want to walk a thousand miles.

Of days when love seems to be as lovely as coffee on a sad winter evening,

To the realization that saying is easier than being.

Of days when you miss the school van,

To the realization that some stories don't end as beautifully as they began.

Of days when you think maybe it's too late to make amends,

To the realization that being stupid is better than pretence.

Of days when things seem to fall apart,

To the realization that life's problems don't come on an a la carte.

Of days when writing poems all day do you no good,

To the realization that not all thieves are robin-hoods.

Of days when looking in the mirror makes you feel as miserable as a cake that wouldn't hold together,

To the realization that nothing in this world or nobody in your life is going to be as beautiful as forever.  <3

Hello thereeeeeee =D

Hello there best friend,
First things first, I hate you more than I hate milk and you're an obnoxious little bitch.
Secondly, you have really big eyes and you're a little fascinating. {People say that.}
It's really easy to love you which explains why I have been doing that for the last 6 years. But important thing is, you're my best friend.
Like, my BEST friend and no you are not going to be there to help me to move the corpse from the living room floor if I ever kill a person.
You are never going to let me reach that point of paranoid. Because that is what you do. Save me from screwing up.
One more thing, everybody say you look beautiful when you smile so you have to keep doing that for the rest of your life.
Warna itni ghatiya shakal ko koi bhaav nahi dega na jaani. :*
You have to be there for me because I have no options in being there for you and you always say, it's a give and take relationship. I miss our walks because the government school road seems to bring out our emotions in a very weird and strange way but that's okay right?
Because we are weird and strange.
Not in the Meredith Grey's dark and twisty way but in  a "We start crying whenever because of no reason at all" way.
It's been a long while since I've been seeing your face almost everyday and I don't know why I feel even the first quarter isn't over.
We have a long way to go.
Opening our library and getting married to buying baby clothes together and I don't know what makes me so sure but you're going to be by my side till the day I am laying in some lousy hospital bed and telling you which white suit to wear for my funeral.
Yeah, I know it's a little too sweet which totally means I have to be a bitch for an entire week to compensate but it's your birthday month so I really do not see that happening.

9 days, favorite bitch :*

Birthday, baby :*

"Dear Someone/Mr.Stubbron/Mr.RedTie/Chinchu/Laalu/Sadu/SadiShakal/Arpan/Mallu/www.Com/L.N/Ted,
I really don't know how to not wish you. But I still won't. 
Maybe because there's no need of me wishing you. Or maybe because you didn't wish me. Or maybe because you majorly suck.
I tried texting you. I tried calling you.
But, I figured, things are just not the same anymore.
And then I thought, maybe I should still wish you.  Because it's never too late to change.
But I guess, this is how we are and maybe this is how we will always be now.
This is not a birthday blog because I don't think I should write you one.
Maybe because I don't want you to think that I still care.
You know even though there have always been a lot of maybes in our story, there was always one thing I was certain of.
And that thing is that you'll always be somebody I'll care for.
Even if the love ends, even if I move on.
I possibly cannot stop caring for you.
Because all this while, you have been there.
Even if there were a little commas in between, I never really saw a full stop.

Happy birthday, haramkhor.
I'll always be sorry for all that I did to you and I'll be angry for all that you did to me.

And yet, I'll always be greatfull to all the things we did to each other.  (IYKWIM.)

Take care. :*
Yours,
Moti/Wish/Lakshita/Saand/Bhais/MotherDairy/Pagal.

Someones.

Over time, I've talked about love quite a lot. And maybe or maybe not you may have noticed that I've mostly referred the one guy in my life as "someone".

So getting to the point, we all have our someones.
You know. Someone you can call, text, beat, irritate and most important of all, someone you can love.
I had a someone too and it would be really wrong of me to call him my someone because of silly reasons I probably shouldn't get to.

But I guess, I'll still call my someone.
And I don't know why.

It's been a long while since my blogs have been about him and I know it's stupid but there was a time when all my blogs used to be about him.
He has a birthday soon.
And it's funny but I don't like the fact that I cannot even do his countdown even though I hate countdowns. 

That's how much a year can change.
Last year, I started his gift around this time and now, I can't even do his countdown.
Keeping all these things apart, I know you all have your someones too and I just want to tell you that if you're with your someone,  let him/her know how special he/she is because god knows where you both end up next year.

And it's not even cynical.
Why miss the chance when you have it?
Replace the M in the second word of the previous sentence with K and friggin' do it.

So bottomline is, winters are here and that obviously mean, Major missing and nostalgia.
The year is about to end and before it does take a break from the usual and appreciate the people you have in your life. Especially you're someones. Because a new beginning is on its way. ;)

Till then,
Wishh.

November. :D

Hey everyone!
I hope everybody can feel the nip in the air because hello NOVEMBER,

Now I know, November is not supposed to be special since Diwali was in October this year but you know what?
November is always going to me weird and special.
And that is because it's the month when all of us, {well, most of us} realize that hey!
AFTER 60 DAYS, THE YEAR IS GOING TO BE OVER.

Another year, is going to come to an end soon and you know, after two long years, I can finally say that I am glad that it's ending.
I mean, it was a good year and somebody wrote a song sometime saying that, "All good things come to an end."
I will do the post with the highlights of the year this year too but it's too soon for that now.

As for now, I feel like sharing with you how happy the world is. I mean, yes, there are plenty of sad fishes in the bowl but you have to remember that life is way more than a bowl, or a sea.
You'll meet plenty of people who are just happy.
Even if not, you will meet people who are placid and you know sometimes that is enough.
Who has the time to be sad?
A smile can do a lot.

Yes, I know sometimes, life isn't fair and it all just does not fit in the picture but you all should remember that no matter how hard it is right now, you will be okay.
The theory I had last year which said that somebody or the other is going to show up when you need them and he or she will make things okay, need not be necessarily true because as you grow up, you're going to realize it takes a lot more than just a somebody to make you happy.
I am not talking about money or anything.
If you really want to be happy, you should have yourself with you.
I know how less sense this sentence makes but it has a big meaning.
It takes yourself to be happy because nobody is going to be there forever.
Your best friend, you're boyfriend, you're counselor or anybody you love is not going to be there forever.
Things are always going to keep changing.
Because that's how life is.
Some people will stay there but you don't know who they are going to be.
And trust me, it's good you don't know.
Because if you already know what is going to happen next, how are you going to live?

Anyways cutting the long story short, Smile.
Somebody awesome once said, "Once you start smiling, things start falling in place. Kid you not."