:')

Again, I am sorry for the absence.
Sorry fellas, but I have lost that thing in me. The craze to write. It's lost.
But I still wanna talk about a lot of things.
For example, I want to tell you people how much I miss this place.
I want to tell some people how much I love them.
I want to tell my parents that I don't want to leave my house.
I want to tell Dad that I hate how he doesn't trust me anymore.
I want to tell Arpan how much I love him.
I wanr to tell Nandini and Pratibha how much I need the Cupcakes/Bombs to get back together.
I want to tell Mansi, Luvleen and Lakshika that they're the only 3 reasons I have for going to school.
I want to tell Mom that I love her even if I shout at her and drive away from her.
I want to tell Ayush that I miss talking to him everyday.
I want to tell Manish Sir that I hate how he drove away.
I want to tell Utkarsh how much I miss him everyday and how much I hate the fact that he's so far away.

There are so many things I want to tell so many people. But no matter how hard I try, I can't.
I wish I could. But I can't.

That's the thing about life, you see. No matter how much you want something, the best is to let go of it.
Because no matter how hard you try grabbing it by the hand, it only pushes you away and while you're running after it.. Suddenly, you discover, it's not even worth it. :)

January to February. Again. :)
Heart beats fast.
Slow down, the world isn't watching now.
Colors and promises.
It's safe to say, we are alone now.

Moments and memories.
I can't hear no sound. Only a whisper.
That whisper turns to shouting. Shouting turns to tears.
The tear turns into laughter.
And it breaks away all fears.

There's a question. There's a doubt.
How can she love when she's afraid to fall?
There's another following on.
Would he even catch her if he does?

If there's an answer, she'd like to know.
She doesn't like it like the winter snow.
Another touch, a little more tears.
These smiles are going to last for years.

They'd see them smile. They'd see them laugh.
Just like it used to be in january.
The giggles and the carefree love.
And maybe it would lead to february :')