Reminders

Everything around me is a reminder.  A reminder of you and me.  A reminder of what we have lost ad what we won’t ever be able to get back. I have tried letting go and love, I have succeeded. I do not look for you anymore wherever I go. I do not think about you all the time I have learnt not to need you and I feel like a part of my life is over. Like a whole phase, the best one till date, has now finally come to an end.

Everything in this world is a reminder. It reminds me about all the bad decisions, all the mistakes and very often it occurs, that it reminds me about the good times. Not only the good times I’ve had with you but with all the amazing times with all those who own a place in my heart.

Anyways, I want to tell you about now. Everything tells me that I am about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is a part of my life and it is the only way I am going to learn my lessons. I do not know what is right or wrong. But honestly, I don’t care. I am going to take my decisions even if I make the wrong one because I don’t want to go back to the old me. Who didn't take risks and didn’t have the courage to say yes to life. I have been like that once and I am not going to be that girl again. There are not going to be any more chances. Life is once, OVER and I am not going to let anything that makes me happy just let go like that.

I have lost a lot of things and people only because I didn’t have the courage to stay with them and honestly, letting go of them feels much of regret now. I miss having those people and those things around.

Yes, I know there’s nothing I can do about it but there is one thing I can do. Not repeat that mistake again and that’s exactly what I am going to do now.  I am making my decisions on my own. I am going to do what I feel like. I am going to be happy. I am going to say yes to life. I have lost a lot of things and anyone who has lost people, who should’ve stayed forever, would know that   nothing belongs to anyone in this world.

So, if nothing belongs to me, then there is no point wasting time thinking about things that are not mine. I am going to do what I feel like and yes, I am going to start saying yes to things and people who are worth it.

Courtesy for post : Paulo Coelho. J

Back. :)

Now now now, it's been a long while since I was here.
Before I start with the usual, there is something I'd share.

Forever starts at my grave.
Do not cry at my grave and yell.
i am not there. I did not die.
I won't be there to dry your tears and compell.
But in your hearts, I shall reside.

I've seen people come and I've seen them go.
But even today, that is not what matters.
I am the shinning brook and I flow.
Seeing people go is not why my heart shatters.

I've been through a lot and I've come a long way.
And for me, the journey is still not over.
I don't run after what went with yesterday.
For me, The story goes on till forever.

Do not cry at my grave and yell.
I am not there, I did not die .

So that is what's going on right now. A lot of introspection, with a handful of cribbing and truckloads of the usual.
I am a little irritated these days but hopefully, things would be normal soon. The tables have always turned.

Hope is still there.
A little change of heart and a little light in.
I still have a long way to go.
So smile :)

Happy Bloggyversary. *Blithe Spirit* :)

Okay so happy one year *How beginnings end*
I am glad I  created you and It's a pity I do not use you regularly.
Sorry but birthdays and anniversaries just don't excite me that much anymore.

So moving on, sorry for the absence.
But I was busy. Seriously.
June was weird and awesome.
Scholarship Fucntion'13 was Amazing.
Summer Vacations are over. Damn.
These were the best ones ever.
I mean, sneaked out, got drunk, stopped hokkah, quit dating, broke the record, anchored a show, wore a saree, danced, hopefully lost a few pounds too, had a huge fight, got over someone who seemed to last forever, let go and the best thing,
Got to know someone who's more awesome than me.
Yeah man, he is super awesome.
He makes sure I don't get addicted to hokkah again, he makes sure I don't ignore my studies, he makes sure I don't get all suicidal like I used to, he even makes sure that I wear the seat belt before he starts the car, he makes sure I don't fight with my parents and he even makes sure I don't cry as much as I used too.
And he even keeps me single!
Okay, that list was a little long.
But it goes on!
I don't know how does he manage to handle me, but he does.
And yeah, meeting him is definitely one of the good deeds of 2013.

Well, yeah, shit happened too but I guess what's done is done.
So moving on,
I don't know how, but I don't cry anymore every night like I used to once.
Fights are going on with parents but I act numb now and honestly, it is a better solution that fighting back.
Tomorrow is the first unit test of 10th.
A little tensed but 4 chapters, 10 marks.
Seriously bitch?
Or what the fuck is wrong with CBSE?

Anyways, it'll go good. I know.

Things are going to be good soon. *Blithe Spirit*
Yes world, the girl who used to hide tears behind every smile has changed.
Now she cries only because her stomach hurt laughing.
I am glad that...
Umm.. Well...
I am glad because..
I am glad I got myself back. =D
JINXX <3
^Every new phase, has a new name ;)

And once again, Happy Bloggyversary How Beginnings End. :*

Okay dude, I like food! =D

Now since I have been gaining a lot of weight for the past few weeks, I thought, hey! Why not talk about food? 

So, India is, without a modicum of doubt, the land of food. No I am not trying to comment upon India’s self sufficiency in food production. Rather what I have experienced is that, despite having quite a low Per Capita Income,India never fails in coming up with the most extravagent fares for the foodies. While the Indian curry is a rage abroad, the middle  & high income Indian is adding inches to his midriff with the help of those potfuls of sugar,spice & everything nice.

The Indian Society allows for indulgence in food on numerous occasions, I would merely like to bring out a few of them here, some situations where food is your primary concern & some fixes where food is far from your mind.

The Shaadi Dinner-

• You fill up to the point of bursting. payment is made by the plate & the fact that the waiters have started giving you the evil eye about three helpings ago is irrelevant as you step up to fill your plate yet again.
• A shaadi dinner serves to challenge the laws of geometry of a human stomach (in common parlance, how does it all fit in!)

The First date dinner-

• Fancy restaurant,
• Butterflies in your stomach thus not very interested in eating much.
• looking at your date, the sparkle in your date’s eyes seems priceless,for everything else there is mastercard ( I hope, else you are screwed).
• Have given her an expensive gift. Money is mere paper in front of the magical essence of love.
• Typically, the menu would be gourmet, you want to show that you enjoy culinary experimentation because  it seems sophisticated.

• Will not let her pitch in for the bill.

The Nth Date dinner   (where “N”  is greater than 10)

• Cheap Dhaba, swatting flies, irritable about having to miss the IPL match for the date your partner insisted upon
• Slow to pick up the check hoping that she will offer to pay, since u gave up being the financial scapegoat long ago.

• Have stopped experimenting beyond butter chicken , dal makhni, after all these dishes didn't become standard fare by a coincidence.

Friend’s Brithday-

• Hog, quantity is very much similar to the shaadi dinner, though maybe u respect the fact that your unfortunate birthday pal needs to have at least bus fare money, so u don't order too many dishes.

Your Birthday –

• Almost don't eat, worried about the bill because some people whom u expected to turn down your invitation have turned up.
• Keep feeling your back pocket for the reassuringly (though very rarely) fat wallet.

A Homely Dinner-

• Hardly eat anything. those who believe that there is nothing as good as mom cooked food, yeah right, You haven't been to good restaurants, maybe you need to pick up The Times Food Guide. XD

The day before an important exam-

• Stomach is feeling queasy, as if you have just seen a B grade Bollywood flick.
• You can hardly nibble on anything though mom wants you to eat well so that you get energy for the exam.(How much energy does it take to write an exam, especially if your preparation level prevents you from writing much in the exam.)

The midnight snack-

• Quiet , You don’t want your parents to wake up and scold you for not having a proper dinner. Ah, The blessed packet of Maggie.

I end here in the hope that you would help me add some more, which may have escaped my mind.

P.S. Chocolate Ice cream with Chocolate Sauce is really not tasty, as sumptuous and tempting as the dish may sound. I had the regrettable urge to try the heady cocoa concoction and my advice is,Do NOT try it.

Amazing What It Does♥

Fanna.♥

The name itself means destroyed in love.

It starts with a blind Kashmiri girl, Zooni, who travels without her parents for the first time with a dance troupe to Delhi and meets Rehan Khan, a Casanova tour guide who flirts with her. 

Even after being warned by her friends constantly, Zooni can't resist falling in love. As the story proceeds, they two spend time together and smile and laugh and as love blossoms, they both share a romantic song, Dekho na, and end up slipping in bed with no strings attached. 

Having no regrets, Rehan convinces Zooni to undergo surgery to reverse her blindness and the day of her surgery,  Rehan leaves to pick up Zooni's parents. When Zooni comes out, she sees her parents with no sign of Rehan. It is later found that Rehan has died in a terrible bomb blast at Rashtrapati Bhavan plotted by a terrorist group fighting for Kashmir.

Later, it is revelad that Rehan is part of the terrorist group and is not dead. Seven years later, Rehan is sent to Kashmir on a mission by the same group where he is injured. He enters a remote house as a communication blackout is ordered by the Indian army and finds that the house belongs to Zooni. 

There he meets Zooni, her father and her son who is named after him, Rehan. 

Later, through a TV broadcast, Zooni and her father separately discover that Rehan is a terrorist. Later, Rehan ends up killing Zooni's father and his friend, an army officer to maintain his hidden identity.

In the climax, Rehan tries to convince Zooni to give help him with his mission, saying that the terrorists will torture and kill young Rehan if she doesn't. Finally he takes the trigger, promising her that no one will actually get hurt and that this is the only way they can have a happy future together. Grieved, but determined to stop him, Zooni runs out of the house after him and shoots him, crying "I love you, Rehan". 

The final scene shows Zooni and little Rehan laying flowers on the graves of Rehan (Sr.) and Zooni's father. Rehan asks if his father was a bad man, and Zooni tells him that he was doing what he felt was right. Rehan kisses his father's grave and tells him that he loves him. Zooni tells her son, "It is easy to choose between right and wrong. But to choose the greater of two goods or the lesser of two evils... those are the choices of our life,".

So yes, even if love doesn't destroys, people do, on a large scale, get destroyed in love.

Love is never easy.

Most of the time, you are either running scared of it, telling lies to make it through the day, or just facing the truth. Some are smiling because of it, some are crying while some are just numb because of it.

Sometimes you get it, sometimes, you don't.

But leaving all that out, the thing is that love is hard.

In the story, Rehan leaves Zooni even when he got her and they both were happy, Rehan left Zooni all alone.

Zooni had to live 7 years of her life, where she could see everyone and everything but the whole world seemed pointless as the only face she ever wanted to see was not there anymore.

She had to spend 7 years alone, living for the only memory Rehan left that Zooni could see, his son.

Nevertheless, as they say, "If it's not good, it's not the ending." Rehan and Zooni meet again.

They have the chance and they have the chemistry.

But again, timing's a bitch.

They two still can't be together because Rehan had to choose between honor and love. 

And because he chose honor, and his honor dis-honored him and his heart, Love, or Zooni, killed Rehan with the truth that she loved him.

What she did was hard and I or no one else could ever do that.

She took away someone who meant the world to her from herself only for him.

That is true love, I believe.

She could have it. She could have had Rehan and his son. 

But she knew what Rehan wanted and she gave him his freedom, taking away everything she had and loved from herself.

It is said "Tere Dil Mein Meri Saanson Ko Panah Mil Jaaye

Tere Ishq Mein Meri Jaan Fanaa Ho Jaaye." 

Love means sacrificing. It means living out for not yourself but for someone else. 

Love means sacrificing. It means living out for not yourself but for someone else. 

Love does has the tendency to destroy  But apart from that and even though it hurts beyond pain can suffer, love is amazing.

It is amazing actually.

It is amazing how a person, you just met, mean the whole world to you.

It is amazing how someone can make you smile even when your heart wants to cry.

It is amazing how a person can make you forget all your limits, and boundaries.

It is amazing how you can fight off anything or anyone just to save that someone.

It is amazing how you can love anyone so much.

It is amazing how you can love.

It is amazing what it does.

Anyways, what I want to say is even though Rehan died, he isn't really dead.

A part of him, maybe a memory lives along. 

Zooni still loves him and maybe she'll love him forever.

They'll always be in love and happy even if not together.

There is so much hatred in the world, but still the hearts tend to carry love.

Marr bhi jaaye pyaar waale. Mitt bhi jaaye yaar waale. Zinda rehti hi hain unki mohabbatein.♥

Why fake feelimgs? Keep it real. Like A Boss B)

You know I never quite liked being in a relationship.
Never. 
For me it's always been like this. 
I have a life. Maybe it's miserable.
But I've had worse and every time, I've made it through somehow.
Maybe I seemed too weak but still, at the end, I stood up.

I am a little crazy and at times I am too mad to handle.
I don't like relationships because honestly, I don't like living up to anybody else who's not me.

And I am no good at them either.  I swear I'm not the adorable girl that'll be all like "Kaise ho?"
"Dinner kiya?"
"Aww"

I am not like that at all. I don't even like being like that.
I mean, out of all the topics in the whole world,  the only thing you want to talk about is what I had for dinner?
That is a cry for help in itself. 
How is it even supposed to be fun?

Well yeah, it feels good to know that someone cares about you and is always there for you but this gooey and romantic shit is not how I like to be.
I don't want to talk to my boyfriend about what I had for dinner.
Not at all.
If I have a boyfriend,  I'll obviously want him to hear my crazy stories but not always. 
At times, I'll also want him to tell me to shut up and hear his stories instead. 
Yes, sometimes it is okay to be a little cheesy but that "Aww, you're my hunny bear" , " I just want to cuddle you up" dailouges are shit.

And I hate it when guys pretend to like them. 
I mean, I am a girl and I hate them so why on earth would a guy enjoy these irritating dailouges covered in cheese? 
And if guys don't like them, which they obviously don't then why the hell do they even hear them?
Can't they just tell the girl to stop being so kiddish and stupid for once?

I never get the logic :/
I mean if she really loves you, you should have the guts to tell her that her stories are boring and you should have the guts to katta-fy her whenever.

I don't want that "I'lll never leave you baby, I promise" kind of boyfriend. 
I want that "Aur chaep, aaj pakana nhi tujhe? " kind of boyfriend.  

I mean isn't being crazy and comfortable with each other supposed to be the whole dynamic of a relationship? 

I think keeping best friends is way better than being in a relationship. 
At least you two keep it real then.

That is the reason my relationships don't last. Because I don't want such a cheesy, holding hands kind of relationship. 

I want a playful relationship where I can punch him and he can slap me and we'll insult each other 24/7 and we never have to tell each other how much we love each other because if we really do, we'll know.

So I guess I'm gonna wait for this guy and I know that there is one like him and I know he is made for me.
Until then, Wish is still waiting.♥

Because Charming will come.
I know right now is not the right time because hell, I'm only 15!

He'll come one day.
And we'll ride to Paradise.
Not on a horse or his expensive car.
We'll go
there walking even if he doesn't likes to because I'm going to make him!  :D

So the point is, you shouldn't run into relationships just because you are feeling lonely.
Wait for the right person.
And we all are not looking for someone who just tolerates your little quirks, we are looking for someone who accepts them, enjoys them and loves you as a person because of them.  ;)

Bleh.

For everything that you do, a part of you suffers.At times, even doing the right things hurt.And they hurt bad.As they says that the fire is in the sun. But the burning is faced by the earth.Same way, the eyes do the love and the suffering is done by the heart.No one can be blamed or cursed for it but it happens. We all fall in love with the idea with love some or the other day and sometimes, when you least expect it, you do fall in love.But as someone else has said, "Loving is so short, forgetting is so long..." is also true.Yes love hurts but before the crying part, there is that part which will make you happy.There are going to be smiles. There is going to be laughter.There will be a time when just looking him in the eye will make your day and there will be nothing else you'll ever need. But after that phase is over, another phase and time will come. When everything you once loved will be over. Gone. Just like that. And then will come the hardest part of the story. The part when you don't know what's right, letting go or holding on.You'll cry, you'll be on the hook, you'll hope. But one fine day, you'll stop waiting around. You'll stop hoping for him to come back. Because that fine day, you'll realize he's not worth it. And if you have something better next to you, just hold on to him and give him all you can. Because maybe, even if not soon, you'll realize if someone can make you smile and laugh, he is worth it. Even if you aren't.Just do what your heart says because you'll never regret the things you do from the heart.Bottom line is, be with someone who makes you happy and try your best to keep him happy.Even if you don't like it because maybe one day, you'll love it. :)
And to add to it, one more quote I love "Why be alone when we can be together.... I can make your life worthwhile.. And you can make my life start to smile."