Charming <3

Dear charming,
I do not know who you are and where your're from or when our paths will intersect but i know you're out there somewhere and i hope  to find you soon.
I just want to tell you that when we meet and fall in love, just love me for who i am and dont try to change me if it's not for the good.
Please understand if i text you constantly because i constantly want to talk to you 

I might not hug you or kiss you first because I'm shy. But that doesn't means that I'll stop you from doing it.
Don't think I am annoying just because I'm mad at you.
A simple sorry usually does the trick for me.
I may have loved before but just know tha none of them really mattered.

I might hug other guys and flirt with some of them but just know that none of them will ever mean to me as much as you do.
If i cry, please know it isn't because of you. Just hold me close and i'll heal quickly and if I ever cry because of you, please know that its just because you mean a lot to me.

I may have loved before and you may not be my first but get the fact that I want you to be my last.
I promise to remember that you have feelings too , even though you'll never admit it and I promise that I won't be mad at you because you forgot to wish me on my birthday or because you couldn't remember our monthly.
Please tell me if anything I do bothers you or if something just doesn't fit right.
I would like you to always be honest with me.
Please don't get mad if I ever call you at a bad time. Maybe it's because I wanted to talk to you real bad.
I hope you'll understand me and won't feel bad when I cry because honestly, I do that a lot.
I hope you don't mind holding my hand in public and I hope you don't feel bad telling people we're together.
I hope you're okay with me abusing and drinking and being loud and crazy in public and doing stuff normal girls don't do. I hope you understand that I don't always like to dress up and wear ten pound makeup and I hope you love me even in Levi's and a loose sweatshirt.

I promise that I'll understand that you need space and I won't get annoyed if you want to watch WWE on ESPN and play FIFA instead of watching gossip girl and facebooking.
I promise I'll love you despite your tendency to forget important dates.

I hope you don't think I'm asking too much of you and you understand that I'm a little nervous and a bit scared of love. I wish I could tell you how or when we'll meet and if we'll be in love forever. I hope you don't get mad if I call you 'Charming' because I've always dreamt of doing that. I promise I'll try my best to keep you happy and make your life a little bit easier without expecting too much of you. Thankyou for listening and come find me soon because I'm waiting for you.
Yours always and beyond,
Lakshita.

Crazy post ahead

Well hello ladies and gentlemen!
First of all, it's 4:32 a.m. And I have a social science exam tomorrow and I swear by god, I don't know a word.
Apart from the that, I also have to complete my maths practicle file or take this as my last post here.
So well, I am drunk and my parents don't have any idea.
Well, I hope they don't.
So I am here to tell you that..

Dumroll please?

It's december! :-D
Lthe most awaited month is finally here and I seriously couldn't be happier. :)

You know why?
Because I am in a relationship with my bestfriend and neither of us have said the 3 magical words and my crush is now single and his ex-girlfriend somehow happens to be my bestfriend and my sister just got married and I gave like 150 solos in total and my ex boyfriend is again in love with me and we talk all the time but I don't feel the same way because hey, I do have a hot boyfriend !
But then again, we're like best friends, but I can't cheat on him! But i like my bestfriend's ex moree!

Also, life's fucked.
I know, I sound crazy but I am just.. Um..
Okay, crazy sounds good.

So, december's here.
I lovee december.
You know why?
Because it's when everything is ending..
Like everything is changing.
The weather's getting cooler and I don't have to worry about going to the parlour for waxing and shit.
Unit tests are gonna be over in a week and there is gonna be no sign of them until february.
And a lot of other things...

But for the most part,
Christmas and new year. :D
Yayie!
Did I mention I just love christmas?
Like ishq waala love types?

I don't know but there's something about jingle bell that gets me crazy!
Maybe it's the red color that gets me absolutely crazy because that's the color we both were wearing the day our plane took flight from friendship and landed in a relationship.
FYI-  I was drunk that day too :P

But I just love red and christmas!
And I'm in a non co-ed convent school so it kinda gets better in festive season.
Also, I get more holidays, so yayie! :D
Umm.. I am sort of sleepy and i know this is a crazy update but i'm drunk so you need to cooperate.

But december's here and i am happy but i have to wake up early tomorrow and it's almost 5 a.m. So night peeps ;)

Oh wait, early today*
Good night :D

For the ones who went and for the ones who stayed.

we all have our special moments.
That time when you slept on the couch and you woke up in your bed with a blanket.
That time when you saw two people getting married.
That time when your dad hands you over your first personal cell.
That time when your teacher handed over your report card to your mom and you saw that look on her face and you knew she was proud.
That time when you got home from a hot day at school and a chilled lemonade was waiting for you at the table.
That time when you went to see your first movie.
That time when you and your mom rushed to the store just after your final result just to get something sweet because you'd passed with good marks.
That time on annual day when your perfomance was going on and you were just searching for one face in the crowd just because you wanted to say hi.
That time when you're mom dropped you off at you're tuition for you're first day.
That time when you saw someone close die in front of your eyes.
That time you cried in front of someobe who wasn't family.
That time when you start keeping things to yourself.
That time when someone told you that you were pretty.
That time when you turn into a teenager. That time when seniors turned into friends.
That time when you take life lessons from an older friend.
That time when you bunk class.
That time when you had your first crush.
That time when all you waited for was to return home.
That time when the first thing that came out of your mouth after returning home was "Mummy, khaane mein kya banaya hain?"
That time when you're brother taught you maths for the first time.
That time when you beated up a friend because he said something bad about your brother.
That time when you scored 50/50.
That time when you got the first prize.
That time when someone who just used to sit beside you during class turned into someone you call your best friend.
That time when someone asks you out for the first time.
That time when you exchanged numbers with a guy for the first time.
That time when you decided it was time I'd start writting a dairy.
That time you completed your first book. That time you went on a walk with your boyfriend for the first time.
That time when said I love you to a guy for the first time.
That time when you're cousins start to involve you in coversations which you weren't supposed to indulge in.
That time when you wear something indian for the first time.
That time when your mom agrees to get you, your first pair of heels.
That time when you have your friends over and your mom cooks them supper.
That time when you played truth and dare with friends.
That time when you had your first evet couple dance.
That time when you get jealous after your friend flirted with yoyr ex.
That time when someone hugged you for the first time.
That time when you were crying and he hugged you and told you it's gonna be okay.
That time when you saw him cry for the first time.
That time when he told you he loved you and he was gonna stay.
That time when you danced with him on the song you both used to dedicate each other when you were together.

We all have our special moments but they mean nothing if the special people aren't there.
They are the ones who make these times moments.
They are the ones who make these moments special.
they are the ones who make life worthwhile.
They are the ones who add love to your life.

These are the people who come into your life and teach you that life's nothing if it isn't shared.
So this is to all of them.
Who made the last 15 years of my life memorabe and tolerant.
Here's to all of them.
Here or not,
I remember all of you and you all are loved.

Thanks for coming into my life and making me what I am today.

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
And being here with me through it all.
For the bad times and the good.
For each and every silly little thing.:)

It begins in my heart when I see your bubble face

I lose all control and my heart beats begin to race.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat when that smile of yours knocked me off my feet

And soon enough, it was hard to breathe, with you, the whole world seemed complete.

I’d fallen for you but I don’t know if you ever felt the same way.

Because you and I was something I could never portray.

I can’t move on, it’s hard, I tried but I loved you then and I love you now.

It will always be the same and I’ll be here forever, I vow.

I don’t know what I’m going to do because,

I've been lying here all night, listening to the rain,

Talking to my heart and trying to explain.

Why sometimes, I catch myself wondering what might have been

Yes I do think about you, every single now and then. 

A Chocolate Or A Mocha-Flavored Sundae? o_0

We all have loved and we all have lost.

The concept of loving and losing get along a little too well you see.

Well, I have loved like any other and I’ve also lost like most of them.

But the amusing part Is that I have only loved once.

I have a lot of friends and well, they all have had their little romances and not just once.

They’ve loved, lost and they’ve moved on.

But it’s never the same with me.

I’ve just loved one guy and no matter how hard I try, I can’t get over him.

I don’t know why but I can’t move on

Not the type bro.

3 years earlier, I realized I’d fallen for this guy but actually I still feel the same.

I’m still hopelessly in love with him the same way, I was before.

He’s gone and even though not so far, I thought I ended that story a long time ago.

I only meet him once in a while and I don’t even miss him that often.

There was a time when he was the only thing I thought about and no matter how much I try, I can’t even stand the fact that maybe I have moved on.

I don’t think about him all the time now, nor do I miss him so much but every time I see him, or hear his voice, I fall in love with him all over  again and I realize he actually means a lot to me.

When I meet him, I wonder how I am even living without him being close because I couldn’t survive without him a while back.

You know the weird part?

Before we were good friends until he left and then it was a once-in-a-blue-moon talk and even t wasn’t good. It felt like he didn’t want to talk to me.

But now that he returned, nothing changed.

Then, after a little while, I left and now every time we talk, he just gets adorable and he becomes the charming guy best friend who I would love to date and who’ll possibly be the best friend ever but I am not sure if I still love him.

He’s like chocolate. I know I love it and I know there’s no chance I would ever regret eating a chocolate but what if it’s dark chocolate?

Or what if this chocolate doesn't like me?

I want to have a chocolate but then there’s also a mocha-flavored sundae in the refrigerator.

Mocha sundae looks scrumptious.

I’ve tried mocha sundae a couple of times and I’ve hated it but still I want mocha even though I know it’s of no use.

I would love to have mocha sundae but it won’t work out with mocha.

But it looks delicious. Okay?

That’s not it folks.

There’s more.

I want to have either of them so bad but I know I can’t afford to have anything sweet right now.

I just cannot date anyone. Because it gets all complicated and I’m in love and then shit happens and I’m crying and waa and wee and fuck all of it.

I think I’ll go and have a pudding instead.

The Leftovers Had Hope.

They were in love and they were together.

They were crazy for each other and they couldn't last a day without talking to each other. 

They both were happy and together. 

And it was supposed to last forever.

But it was only for a while. 

And everything that could happen was 'supposed' to happen. 

Nothing worked out and they grew apart.

She is still love with him and remembers every bit of it. 

She has it all. 

She tries to smile but her tears aren't really hard to spot. 

She hopes that one day all of it turns back to the way it wasn't but the way it was supposed to be. 

She lives each day hoping that things get better and goes to sleep every night with a burdened and disappointed heart. 

She hopes that one day the sun shines bright and he is reminded of her somehow and he wish he'd stayed. 

She tries hard to smile but the fact that they couldn't last kills her everyday. 

Everyday, she asks herself the same question. 

Everyday she fakes the same smile.

Everyday she doubts if she doesn't deserves to be happy. 

Everyday she looks around and tries to find her happy ending. 

She's broken.

But she still hopes and she still believes. 

She did not suffer too much.  

Taylor Swift

Hello peeps. =D
I've been listening to loads of music lately and well I just went from a punjabi-rap lover to a super crazy Taylor Swift fan.

I have been listening to her songs over and over again and I am in love.

So well, I have a little something I would share with you fellow bloggers. 

That's it for today folks.
I am in no mood to talk today so you're lucky. :)

Night fellas!