✩Heartbeats & Promises✩
the by products of a crazy, 14 year old who's random, rebellious, loud, loony, irritating, erratic, stupid, hypocrite and not proud of it!
Thursday 31 August 2017
Words stop..
Tuesday 25 April 2017
Beautiful.
Monday 17 April 2017
Teen patti.
The day you get promoted to class 12th, they start telling you how to spend the next one year of your life.
Some will tell you to deactivate your social profiles. Others will tell you to make a schedule.
Something that most of them will tell you is that this one year is the most important year of your life.
So within 4 hours of being promoted to class 12th, you'll know one thing for sure and that will be that Boards are something crucial for success and you need to work for them.
All year, they'll make the same speeches again. Go over the same lectures multiple times and they will make your life hell. Every now and then, everybody will try to lighten up your mood if they feel sorry for you over worked ass.
Moms will be in the kitchen soaking almonds because someone said that they make kids intelligent. Dads will be checking in on you at night feeling sorry because their kid is up so late and wondering if you have your phone hidden behind the book.
That's what 12th is about.
So many hours of tuition that you can't tell the difference between home and the institute and the occasional career counselling, of course!
Like all of this torture wasn't enough. Schools take money from these stupid entrance coaching institutes for one seminar thinking that their kids might be benefited from them. What they don't know is, those who will listen to these seminars already know what to do with their lives and those who don't know, will probably use it for covering up last night's sleep.
If you're reading this the day I wrote this and you're in 12th, you might be high or drunk or happy but at large relieved because the torture is over.
Boards are over.
You might be feeling like a tornado has come to an end and it is honey, so smile.
There's only one reason I'm writing this post.
It's to tell you don't waste your days thinking about how much you're going to score.
What they forgot to tell you is that Boards are nothing short of Teen patti.
It's not poker so you can't make your luck. It's not bluff so you can't act smart and make your way out. It's open Flash.
Your marks depend on the Examiner's mood more than they depend on how your exam actually went.
They depend on if you're the 12th paper or the 2nd or the 52nd that the examiner is checking.
It's funny how the one thing that makes your career is treated like this in our country.
It happened to me, it happened to my best friends.
People who didn't know shit about the subject topped and people who had the ball in their court suddenly didn't even know how to play.
That is what has been happening and I just want to tell you, it might happen to you too.
Don't lose heart for your luck might just be better than the rest of them.
What I want to tell you is even if it doesn't work out your way, life has a lot to offer. Boards are the easy way out but there is a lot more that matters. Don't forget entrances because that is where hard work ACTUALLY pays off.
Even if you have to settle for a course you didn't plan on doing, I should tell you plans change and it's not the end of the world.
College is going to give you the one thing school never could, Awareness and that my friend is what will take you everywhere. Your life will no longer be restricted to the four walls of your school and home and tuition. Your life is going to so many places that you'll actually miss those four walls.
So forget about 12th because it's over. Turn the pillow and sleep with peace tonight for all you should know is, even if not the 95%, you have earned that least that.
Friday 31 March 2017
Chaddu Falls
Thursday 12 January 2017
All this time.
Thursday 29 December 2016
Might💚
If it's 3 am and you're tossing around pillows because you can't stop thinking about that one person who either ruined you or put the pieces together, I feel you.
It's nothing to be ashamed about. We all have been there,done that and at this hour, everybody's craving for the one thing they can't have.
So here's a poem I wrote some time back, which will probably make your tragic night more tragic so my apologies and special thanks to The only legal heir for typing this for me and all of you and to Madam Grover for giving my poem a title.😙😚❤
Melodies that get me by my mundane mornings,
People might leave but memories shall always cling.
Dreamcatchers will not get you through your bad dreams,
But someone might if at 2am,if he is willing to buy you icecream.
Photos might not capture what your heart will,
Stills and instances from the time you spent will leave you numb and still.
This old shirt might loose the lipstick stain that you left behind,
But in case he leaves the cigarettes won't loose the stain that slipped his mind.
Shadows of the memories might trouble you at night,
The truth is sad. You won't move on and he might.
Candles you once lit might melt an die,
And there will be mights when all you can do is cry.
So that's all for tonight, thanks for all the love.❤
Thursday 15 December 2016
The horizon.
Sometimes in life, trying is not the answer.
They tell you that every time you try, you're one step closer to the destination. But just like Science, whatever they say, will always have one exception to the rule.
To be honest, the exception will always be more important than the rule.
The key to success is not trying, it's to know WHEN to stop trying.
Sometimes, fighting makes it harder and giving in to the situation is easier than battling your inner demons. Peace is a hard place to find and when you do find it, being at peace is even harder.
Winning every battle you fight is not necessary to win the war. Winning is not victory. Winning is a medal you wear for 2 hours, victory is the trophy that lives on your front desk forever.
It's like, when you take a test with negative marketing and subjective questions. Why don't you answer the questions you don't know the answers to?
Because losing something that's yours over something that's not going to end well is pointless.
Do the same with relationships.
If you're not sure, don't go for it because the chances of you getting something good out of doubt, are rare and shouldn't be considered.
I'm not even sure if you get what I'm trying to say because nothing makes sense anymore.
Bottomline is, don't waste your time trying to fly to the horizon, because no matter how tempting it is, it was, is and always will be, unachievable.